New Beginnings

It's true that I abandoned this blog over a year ago. I had nothing of importance to say, and no one was listening, but yesterday I was inspired to start once more by a friend. Although, it is true that I still have nothing of importance to say, and still no one is listening. But we can see where this goes.
I am not the same person I was when I first started this blog. I was a confused, lonely, and hurt freshman. Now I am a confused, lonely, and hurt junior, but with some new insight. I have met someone who has taught me to love, do good, cherish life, and so much more. Although my old faults still exist I've learned to deal with them and even begin to fix them. I hope throughout this blog I can help lead you to this being who can change your life as drastically as He has changed mine.

Summer Is Coming To An End

Ahhhhh. I haven't blogged in a while, but I've been busy!!
I went to camp, and I've been getting ready for school to start back up. Plus I've been packing to go to Virginia.
Anywho, back to the original program.
I start school this year on August 14th. Many things bother me about this.
1. It is way to early to start. I mean come on! They keep cutting my summer down (they being our school board) and it does not make me happy. What do they expect me to do?! How the heck am I supposed to get everything I want to get done in a summer in this short period of time. I mean, I wanted to teach myself to skateboard this summer and I'm nowhere near done! Maybe if I got the proper amount of holiday I would have been able too!
2. We start school on a Friday. This doesn't exactly bother me, but it doesn't exactly make sense either. What's the point of starting on a Friday? I dunno. It just doesn't make much sense to me. I'm sure there's a reason, but probably not a good one.
3. Lastly, we don't have any more half days. I understand why they don't want us students to have half days since I guess we could learn more and junk, but what about the teachers? How are they supposed to get teacher conferences done, how the heck are they supposed to get teacher training in? Are they expected to do it after school or on weekends?! They already work long ours, they already take work home, and they're already underpaid! STUPID JERK-FACED-POOPY-HEADS who run the state.
What do you guys think?

God Doesn't Have A Dress Code

Errrrrrrrrrrr. I happen to be kind of pissed off. Wanna know why? Well too bad. I'm telling you anyway.
So as many of you don't know, my uncle pastors the church that I attend. He's out of town for a few days so we have no song leader. Well the people in charge while he and his family are gone asked me if I'd like to fill in since I love to sing and since I've done it before. I quickly agreed and was excited. They even talked my best friend into singing with us too. Then all of a sudden they dropped the bomb, "You have to wear a skirt though."
I have nothing against people who wear skirts, but I'm just not one of those people. I don't own a dress and the only skirts I own are for orchestra and choir concerts. You may be like, "Ashlyn, why does this make you pissed." Well I don't think it's right. I've sang up there countless times in jeans and a tshirt. Half of those times my hair wasn't even done or I was wearing crazy make-up. Why does it matter now what I wear? God takes me how I am why can't they take the sticks out of their butts and take me as I am too? How am I supposed to lead song service in a skirt if I'm clearly not comfortable wearing one?
When they told me this I was so pissed I wanted to go off, but being in the house of God kept me from doing so. It is so freaking stupid. I understand having a modesty rule. I mean, no one wants someone showing off all their "goodies", but did you know that jeans cover up more than most skirts do?! WHO WOULD'VE KNOWN!? Not these close-minded-prejedice-old-fashioned-fart-for-brained BUTT FACES!!!!!!!!!! Errrrrrrrrrrrrrrr.

Hugs!

People I must hug before I keel over:

-Kate Gosselin (because her husband is an asshole, and her children are to die for).
-William Shatner (because he is a playyyaa, and he also saved my momma money on hotel rooms).
-George Lucas (because he created a job that I actually have an interest in doing).
-Hank Green (because he helped create a world where I can be myself).
-John Green (because he makes me laugh on one page and sob the next).
-Michael Buckly (because he makes Disney Channel cool).
-Julian McMahon (because he has the best, fake American accent ever).
-Dylan Walsh (because he is better at having angst than Harry Potter is).
-Rosie O'Donell (because she makes fun of Donald Trump).
-Will Smith (because he has the cutest son ever, and he's gorgeous).
-Jacob Scheel-Bech (because he's Danish and smokin').
-Liam Neeson (because I consider him the new Chuck Norris).
-JK Rowling (because she reminded me that reading is my favorite thing to do).
-Zebulon Holsopple (because his name is Zebulon, and he is the best biology teacher).
-Frankie Muniz (because I find him hilarious).
-Dane Cook (because I'm going to have sex with him before Taylor does).

Angst anyone?

I'm sitting at the computer crying. Why? Well my mom would say it's because I haven't taken my anti-depressant in two days, but I say it's because I need something. What I need is closure. Well maybe not closure exactly. I got closure with the epic burning. What I really need is to strangle someone. Not just any someone, but a certain someone.
I don't see how anyone could look someone in the eyes and say, "I love you," but never mean it? I mean, those words are just so powerful. How can you spend so much time with one certain person just to let it all go without thinking twice about it? How can you hold someone, kiss someone, spend hours talking to someone but then all of a sudden stop doing those things cold turkey? I could never do that with my own choosing, but I'm being forced.
I don't miss the person that I use to do these things with. It's been months since it's ended. All I miss is the things in general. I miss being able to call someone that I knew cared about me. I miss staying up all night on the phone with the endless butterflies. I miss the wonderful kisses. The kisses on my forehead, on my nose, on my cheek, on my neck, etc etc. I miss having someone hold me as I cried, or slept, or just thought. Sure I could do these things with someone else, but is it wrong to think that it wouldn't be the same?
I am the most shy when it comes to relationships. For example, I'm almost 16 and I've kissed only 2 boys. Not because boys don't want to kiss me, but because I am a sorry-ass-chicken. I've only ever made out with one boy, and that is the farthest I've been. It took me forever to trust this boy and to fall for him, but when it happen boy did I fall. I fell head-over-heels in love. I always had a feeling that there was something odd about how he treated me, but he said he loved me and I believed him. He was a good actor I guess...or maybe I'm just bad at reading people.
Maybe I'm afraid to let myself fall for someone else. I'm afraid of getting hurt again. I can't just bounce back like other people. It took me forever to get over him. Now I find myself wanting physical contact with a special someone. I need someone who loves and cherishes me. I can't help but fear that it'll never happen.
Is it different for males? Is it easy for them to just switch from girl to girl without another thought? Do they feel alright lying to girls and getting them to fall hard just when you're about to leave? Maybe I just fall for jerks.

-Ashlyn

Dani Weaver

So I'm at my friend Dani's house right this second and I was mentioning to her that I had a newly made blog. Being the person that she is she asked me to right a whole blog about her. Here it goes (even though I have no idea what I'm going to say).
I believe I'll start by describing her physical features and then follow that by her personality. Danielle Renee Weaver stands at a heighth of five foot three inches. She has lovely brown eyes that compliment her bleach blonde hair. She happens to hate her hair though. She gets that hair from her father's side of the family, and she constantly curses her "Mexican genes" for giving her it. Since she hates that hair that likes to fro out she wears it up all the time. She likes to put huge (and when I say huge I mean HUGE) clips in it to hold back her bangs. All of her friends beg her to wear it down. She persistantly refuses.
Now that I have gotten to the personality portion of this blog I'm blocked. There is so much to say about this girl. I've known her since 2005 and she hasn't changed a bit. We've gotten closer over the last year and I'm greatful for that every single day. She has become one of the best friends I have ever had in my entire life. One of the things that I love about her is that she never changes for anyone, and she never comprimises her beliefs for anyone no matter how close she is to them. She doesn't care what they think about her as long as she stays true to herself. A lot of people respect her because of that aspect of her.
Another thing about her that I love (and that everyone else loves) is that she is HILARIOUS!! She doesn't even intend to be funny. Haha. She always keeps everyone laugh when they're around her. She is up for a good time no matter what (depending on your definition of a good time) and smiles all the time.
Haha. Something that keeps me laughing about her is that she is boy crazy. Not to regular boys. No. She likes the boys that the other girls don't like. Some people would call these boys ugly or weird, but she considers them different and eccentric. She also likes to give them little nicknames like "Sam Sam", "Beast", or "Sexy". She's so shy though when it comes to them that she hardly talks to them. I consider that a good things since boys just ruin everything. XD
Well I could go on and on for days about this girl, but you'll have to meet her to get her full effect. :)

-Ashlyn

Showers;

Honestly, I haven't taken a shower in 2 days. I'm not a gross person; I swear. I'm just lazy. VERY lazy. What's the point anyway. It takes up to much time (if you're me) and I have no one to impress. Usually I take my shower before bed so the next day my hair will already be dry and ready to be tamed, but it's hard for me to pull myself into the bathroom, take my clothes off, turn the water on, etc when I know I'm not doing anything the next day that requires me being clean. I don't have any friends to see or any places to go. My family doesn't care or judge me (and if they do they're just family right?) so what's the point.

It's true that my hair and such feel gross when I don't shower, but I'm way too content sitting in front of my computer screen eating ramen to drag myself across the kitchen and down the hall.

Is anyone else like this or am I just weird? Is this a sign of being OVERLY lazy? Do I have a problem?